F*ck.

I'm involved in an uphill emotional battle. Being "strong, independent, focused, yadda yadda"....doesn't come without a price tag. They kinda forget to tell you that in grade school when they tell you to be who you "truly" are, express yourself, "reach for the stars...."


its a different world when you want change. most people don't. i'm feeling rather odd considering the new year and "new slate" everyone thinks they get when the year starts over. But nothing is REALLY clean, nothing is REALLY new, you just lie to yourself so you feel better about the shit you know is just gonna roll over into next year. My family issues aren't going anywhere cuz the calendar changed, my ex still haunts me, my worries stay the same, and then some. The mind is a crazy thing.

The only person i really battle is MYSELF. Everything is such a mind game. I have to continuously talk myself into and out of situations. pump myself up. be my own best friend. trust myself, doubt myself. lie to myself about certain things, and remind myself of my own truths. i have to be balanced and checked and re-booted.

I don't know if its cuz I'm straight pms-ing, if its cuz my muthafuckin tooth hurts and i had to make an emergency trip to the dentist, my disturbing family fone calls, my lack of yoga attendance, the dirty ass glasses im wearing but am too pissed off to wipe clean (like that makes ne thing better) or that wu-tang WON'T be in studio tomorrow thats making my mind race.... but whatever.

Im in a shit mood. and im revelling. tomorrow enough of the shit.

New & Exciting Sheeit on the way....

its been a minute but ive been madd busy with work..... new website launch with my job and its taken up some of my personal blogging time....

I GOT U. dont trip....


good ish on the way....


i'll have a lil something for u in the am...


la!

SNOOP is outta hand. and i love it.

Not EVEN gonna lie.

I was just as geeked as the next person to check out the American Gangster film. Not only did Jay get inspired to do his whole concept album after the movie, but Denzel was set to do his thang. I watched the movie via Bootleg a couple weeks early (before the official release date) and listen to the American Gangster Cd the same way..... SOOOOO long story short i'm no one to call on the code of ethics.......buuuuuut, since we do have the right of "free speech" which is often debatable ( Dog the Bounty Hunter ) I just find it amusing that we celebrate the worst in people......

Frank Lucas. If you've seen the movie, and watched this interview then you KNOW that he is indeed, and American Gangster. We even interviewed him on our show, and no lie, i was excited. (We were cut off and kept short on the interview so the opportunity to bring the heat was a little limited) I guess im just disappointed at how this is what we all fiend for.....the baddest of the bad...the ugly of the ugly....i even do a lot on my blog......

when's the last time u saw something good on the news? or heard a nobel peace prize winner on air? ...it just doesn't happen. it doesn't sell. it doesn't turn heads. We celebrate needless socialites, sex tapes, racism, and other wrong things JUST by paying them attention..... im not sure what the solution is, and everyone has to eat, and we HAVE to talk about our truths and whats going on in the world....

i guess just food for thought..... i'm gonna try and clean up my act by balancing it all out.....next feel good story i've got....you got it too.

Ain't that the troof.

American Gangster

S0o0o0o0o0o0. . . . . .

I've seen the movie, CHOUT OUTZ: Bootleg Kev. NOW i got the album. I'ma be honest, the movie is GOOD, not great. Cool insight into Frank Lucas and his life, CRAZY. The movie isn't TOO hollywood it just pretty much follows the sequence of his life story. I'm listening to the album Jay did in honor of the movie and i won't have a full review until i hear the whole thing.

gotta love Denzel. MOVIE is a cool watch, but doesn't live up to the hype necessarily. Wait until theatres if you want the FULL experience, if you cheat and get in early like i did.......u mite be a little disappointed. I'ma still go to the premiere to get the fill of the audience.

Fithy Cent Hatin' STRONGER

So apparently he pulled this MEAN hater move at a Philadelphia POWERHOUSE concert and decided to diss my boy Kanyeeezy. Apparently, the Kang aka T.I.P was supposed to be there but since he's posted in the pinta, he obviously wasn't able to show. Fithy decided to show up uninvited and dawg Ye. HOWEVER, I don't believe I've ever seen Kanye hit those dance moves, Fithy got kinda male stripper with it. WACK. What's wackest, he's might have a future in exotic dancing since he got the body and now we know he's got the moves. Its only a matter of time since he's cd is wack, that we catch him in a fish net get up with a wig and boxing gloves......and i mean that in the most endearing way, CHOUT OUTZ to Oscar De La Hoya.